The guy is doing better.

I'm off to Destin tonight for a girls weekend. I cannot wait. I did absolutely nothing over spring break because I had these papers due as soon as school resumed the next week. I need a vacation.

I'm walking in the commencement ceremony in two weeks, because I am actually graduating. I freaked out when I turned in my seating card for graduation and ordered my cap and gown.

I'm hoping for good times this weekend. Monday would be our anniversary if we were not on a break. And I don't think we're every going to get back together. I started screaming at him in my dreams again. I am under way too much stress.

He had an accident. The car is totaled. His door was ripped off.
It wasn't his fault. The other car ran a stop sign. He couldn't stop. He has two broken vertebrae plus other bumps and bruises. He is in so much pain and I can't make it go away. And I can't get there to be with him until this weekend.
As much as I hurt when he told me he wanted to take a break I never wanted anything like this to happen to him. His car was the only thing he had left after the hurricane and now its gone.
I'm so glad he is alive.

Spring

March came and with it came spring.
There's this smell in the air that comes with spring.
The air smells warm. The sky always seems a brighter shade of blue.
I love the way the sun feels against my skin.

I've been enjoying the weather and spending time with friends.
Things are, well they just are right now.
I'm coming to this point in my life where things are about to change and I am comepletely and utterly scared.

Today is finally over. I didn't cry today. I tried really hard to avoid today and the thought of today at all costs. Having said that I don't know why I ventured to wal-mart this afternoon. There were so many people there buying last minute gifts for whomever they were buying them for. I must have seen like five guys walking around with dozens of pink and red balloons and without their dignity.

Today was ok, because I knew there was no way that he and I could see each other. He had to work. I had class today. I have two tests tomorrow. He didn't get off work until 8 tonight. It's a 2 hour drive. It just wasn't going to happen. Not today. Maybe if V-day had been on a weekend. We talked and he told me Happy Valentine's Day. This year was still much better than last year where the guy I was dated said no to doing anything on V-day and then ran off to Vegas.

I take back the "I didn't cry today." I did cry while watching the olympics and that 21 year old guy won the gold for the combined skiing thingy. It was his mom that did it and her reaction. And he is really cute.

I made myself dinner tonight. I pan seared a ribeye steak with this garlic spice rub and made some mashed potatoes and corn. And for desert some triple chocolate cookies. It was so yummy. I felt I deserved something tasty, because I've been eating grilled chicken for the past week.

I really wanted a Whitman's sampler. But all wal-mart had were the one's that came heart shaped. I wanted the box version. I just couldn't buy a heart for myself.

I'm getting a ceiling. There have been construction workers in my apartment all day. Too bad they are not cute. They are actually kind of creepy. But they are fixing my apartment, so I can't really complain. I just hope they don't use my bathroom.

We saw each other today. It was good. It felt so nice to be near him. And it only reminded me of how much I really do miss him.

At this moment. At this very minute, there are workers putting on my new roof.
It's about time.